deck chairs on the titanic
this is not about a
full grown man on a clear blue day
on a sidewalk near San Francisco bay
wearing a down-and-out dingy white and
brown spotted dog costume...
shaggy fur all matted and crusty
knees worn bare, body curved
in full concentration at his task
it’s not about his menagerie
of seven dogs lined up on a bench
in order from smallest to largest, each
patiently letting him fidget and arrange
their brightly cellophaned top hats,
adjusting their rubber-band chin straps,
as if angling their hats just so
will attract an audience
and a pocketful of coins
this is about
the fine line between
brilliance and the absurd,
between enlightenment and insanity…
it’s about a woman finding herself
thirty years into a marriage
calling it quits and hurling
her life into a tiny boat
with a rusty compass and no anchor,
it’s about mistaking the
passionate attentions
from an unexpected messenger
for the message,
it’s about the futility of
trying to set a steady course
through converging waves, surges
and currents… it’s about
improvising and failing and
sinking and starting over.


17 Comments:
"it’s about a woman finding herself
thirty years into a marriage
calling it quits and hurling
her life into a tiny boat
with a rusty compass and no anchor,"
But you do have an anchor - you have the you you have become, the you that always stays, never leaves, always knows and never gets lost. Every free fall ends, every ending is only the beginning of something else. Row that tiny boat for all you're worth. There are many of us that have sailed the sea before you and we know that eventually you'll be just fine. And while you're not being fine, don't forget to remember that you will be.
thanks pauline,
i know everything you say is true and it fits right into my head, but the words can't find the way into my heart.
right now i'm such a wreck. thanks for being here.
big hugs,
snowsparkle
I know just what you mean - just keep saying the words and your heart will be able to remember them. Huge changes like the ones you're facing are always disruptive. But I am living proof that one can survive them and I will keep you tucked into my prayersleeve. You can email me anytime.
I am new to your blog, so I don't know your entire situation... but your poem does seem to be about chosing what light to see things in. And just the metaphor of the deck chairs on the Titanic is a lovely way to describe something otherwise-tragic. You have a talent, I hope you can use that to get through whatever rough phase this is!
ok, "....it’s about
improvising and failing and
sinking and starting over."
Sure know about that, m'self. First off, I tossed out the anchor because it was too heavy, though.
Seems like every time I get up, someone or something slaps me back down.
Kept throwing up the prayer for understanding of "why me?" but didn't think the answer was comin' near fast enough....
Still don't have the answer, but, I'm closer to what I have to do....
It isn't getting knocked down that ever counted for much, but rather, the getting back up.
I have to get back up.
You, too, gal.
but, you already knew that, didn't you?
...oh, and by the way, one way to get back to the present ...
get tagged.
(ding ding ding ding!)
YOU ARE TAGGED!
It's an easy one, though. Just six lil words.....
maybe a picture, too.
Some folks use their own pictures, some use others.....
C'mon by, find out more....
What honest, brave, human words.
Keep rowing, eyes straight ahead, humming softly.
pauline, i feel safe tucked into your prayer sleeve, and feeling grateful for your kindness and strength.
big hugs,
snowsparkle
hi princess and welcome,
"rearranging deck chairs on the titanic" is the phrase my title was alluding to... an exercise in clueless actions and futility.... but i like your translation better. thanks for your compliment and encouragement.
big hugs,
snowsparkle
hey there boneman,
i love this quote
"It isn't getting knocked down that ever counted for much, but rather, the getting back up.
I have to get back up."
i'll keep them close in mind over these next months... if my life could get any more "interesting" unpredictable or complicated, i'd better become a much better and faster writer to keep up.
thanks for always being here and sharing your kind support.
big hugs,
snowsparkle
hi riseoutofme,
thanks for your kind words and encouragement. i don't know you well but i want to... what a blessing you are to me.
big hugs,
snowsparkle
Love that "mistaking the messenger for the message"! That stayed with me--says so much...boy, have I been in that boat myself...
(((snowsparkle)))
Yes, keep rowing. Sing to (for) yourself. Keep your eyes open and look for the beauty that will soothe the raw places and eventually put things to rights again. Oh, you know these things already, there is nothing I can tell you... except that I am thinking of you...
hi firebird!
i want so much to write about the messenger, but i've felt so incapable of capturing the experience from an enlightened perspective.... i've been so caught up in it. omg... it has been some distraction... and maybe a little too juicy for all audiences. thanks for letting me know i am not alone. thanks for your encouragement.
big hugs,
snowsparkle
hi mb!
thank you for the big hug... i truly felt it and needed it! and you'd be surprised at the way any wisdom i might have had has evaporated in the face of this... so i really appreciate your reminders... they are soothing and very helpful. so thank you for all of them. i am putting them to good use right now!
big hugs,
snowsparkle
Reading signs. Mistaking them. Sometimes seeing them clearly. Accepting that we don't know some things and that we know more than we thought we did.
Thank you for making me think about all this.
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